ugh

as anyone could probably guess i am further ahead on this dumb life story thing than i post...the more i write, the more things i remember that seem so relevant to the person i see myself as, and it's really hard to put it all in chronological order since i am not a schooled writer and i don't know any other way to put it than chronologically.
and sometimes i feel icky about it.
you have all these thoughts in your head...all this perspective and all these beliefs about how events in your life really transpired, and writing it down has forced me to think about some things in different ways...i'm not really going anywhere with that thought, but i will just say that somedays i am afraid of anyone reading about my life, or the way i saw it, at least. i will keep posting, however, because it feels like letting it all go...giving it all to cyberspace...
i still feel...ugh...